I know im weird..i luv it
I hate remembering...but i cant stand to forget.Im a daughter hiding my
depression, im a sister making a good impression.im the girl sitting next to to
you.Im the one asking you to care. im ur best friend hoping u will be there. im
glass in a metal body, drop me and im fine on the outside, but on the inside im
shattered. ok..am i alive or am i dead? my greates regrets repeating inside my
head. Feeling so empty and so cold like a pile of my blood forming a pile of
mold. Sometimes i wonder if ill ever be missed, trapped in my own darkness. Lost
to the blindness of my mind. The depression, a war in time. Counting down the
days of my life line. Lost in all of these stupid little rhymes. Trying to
breathe, but no longer living, all lost hope, lost all meaning. Confused with
what is real. Saying grace at my last meal. Counting down the seconds to the
end. Watching in hell as they put me to rest. But i like to wait in the rain so
no one an tell if im crying. and its sad when someone can walk right by u and
pretend u werent a big part of their life. just because u know someone would
wait for u forever, doesnt mean u should make them wait that long. when people
walk away from me i let them walk ,because My destiny is NEVER tied up to
somebody who left. and its hard to forget someone when they gave u so much to
remember..You touched my heart and brought me our of the darkness, you kept me
safe in ur arms and how u felt and charms, then u let me go back into the
darkness where i nnurse my cold broken heart. and someone asked me" do you miss
him?" i didnt answer i walked aaway and whispered"so much"... Id belive id wake
up one day an dnot miss you anymore.Ill finally realize u let me go for a reason
and that it wasnt u who messed up it was me. and people tell me im a strong
person, but they dont know i cry in the middle of the night because i miss you.
The world would be amazong if everyone was slightly strange. i wish i could
ignore you like everyone else ignored me. i hope the air will serve to remind
you that my heart is as cold as the clouds and of your own breath. and my words
are as timed as the beating of my chest. Oh!! and never tell ur problems to
anyone because 19% dont care, 80% are glad you have them , and that 1% do care u
just cant find them. God friends are like stars, u cant always see them but they
are always there.but since when do they exist everyone is so fake now. behind
this innocent smile of mine lay words left unsaid,words longing love anger and
hate all repeated inside my head, if u dont understand me its not my fault. i
feel guilty for even being alive. I feel like im Forgotten. After a while u
learn the differnece between holding hands and falling in love, you begin to
learn that kisses dont always mean something,,promises are as easily broken as
they are made, i guess goodbyes really are forever. Its hard to answer the
question " what s wrong?'' when nothing is right. Someone asked me if u=i knew
u. A million memories FLOODED into my head but i just said" not anymore'' I wish
i could hurt u the way you hurt me.But i know that if i had the chance that i
couldnt. But dont confuse my attitude and my personality because my personality
is ME and my attitude depends all on YOU! Ill telll u a secret of all Secrets.
Mirrors are doors through which death comes and goes...dont tell anyone.. so
spend ur life looking in a mirror and watch death at work...
Megan Woods...<3
depression, im a sister making a good impression.im the girl sitting next to to
you.Im the one asking you to care. im ur best friend hoping u will be there. im
glass in a metal body, drop me and im fine on the outside, but on the inside im
shattered. ok..am i alive or am i dead? my greates regrets repeating inside my
head. Feeling so empty and so cold like a pile of my blood forming a pile of
mold. Sometimes i wonder if ill ever be missed, trapped in my own darkness. Lost
to the blindness of my mind. The depression, a war in time. Counting down the
days of my life line. Lost in all of these stupid little rhymes. Trying to
breathe, but no longer living, all lost hope, lost all meaning. Confused with
what is real. Saying grace at my last meal. Counting down the seconds to the
end. Watching in hell as they put me to rest. But i like to wait in the rain so
no one an tell if im crying. and its sad when someone can walk right by u and
pretend u werent a big part of their life. just because u know someone would
wait for u forever, doesnt mean u should make them wait that long. when people
walk away from me i let them walk ,because My destiny is NEVER tied up to
somebody who left. and its hard to forget someone when they gave u so much to
remember..You touched my heart and brought me our of the darkness, you kept me
safe in ur arms and how u felt and charms, then u let me go back into the
darkness where i nnurse my cold broken heart. and someone asked me" do you miss
him?" i didnt answer i walked aaway and whispered"so much"... Id belive id wake
up one day an dnot miss you anymore.Ill finally realize u let me go for a reason
and that it wasnt u who messed up it was me. and people tell me im a strong
person, but they dont know i cry in the middle of the night because i miss you.
The world would be amazong if everyone was slightly strange. i wish i could
ignore you like everyone else ignored me. i hope the air will serve to remind
you that my heart is as cold as the clouds and of your own breath. and my words
are as timed as the beating of my chest. Oh!! and never tell ur problems to
anyone because 19% dont care, 80% are glad you have them , and that 1% do care u
just cant find them. God friends are like stars, u cant always see them but they
are always there.but since when do they exist everyone is so fake now. behind
this innocent smile of mine lay words left unsaid,words longing love anger and
hate all repeated inside my head, if u dont understand me its not my fault. i
feel guilty for even being alive. I feel like im Forgotten. After a while u
learn the differnece between holding hands and falling in love, you begin to
learn that kisses dont always mean something,,promises are as easily broken as
they are made, i guess goodbyes really are forever. Its hard to answer the
question " what s wrong?'' when nothing is right. Someone asked me if u=i knew
u. A million memories FLOODED into my head but i just said" not anymore'' I wish
i could hurt u the way you hurt me.But i know that if i had the chance that i
couldnt. But dont confuse my attitude and my personality because my personality
is ME and my attitude depends all on YOU! Ill telll u a secret of all Secrets.
Mirrors are doors through which death comes and goes...dont tell anyone.. so
spend ur life looking in a mirror and watch death at work...
Megan Woods...<3